Tuesday, April 17, 2007

In Memory...


(courtsey Yahoo)


The tragedy that occurred yesterday in the US leaves me at a loss for words. Innocent students, not unlike myself, literally gunned down in the prime of life, and there's no one to hold accountable for it.


My thoughts and prayers go out to the victims and their families of the Virginia Tech massacre of April 16th, 2007. May the souls of the departed rest in peace, and may their families find some solace in life, as meaningless as it seems right now.

Currently, CNN runs the news as a breaking story. I intend to update as time progresses and more details are filled out. This is not out of mockery, or the need to be gossipy, but because this has hit very close to home. I genuinely hope that something good comes out of this, but I would rather have it come at a far less price. The life of 32 students to send a message is 32 too many... sadly, it's reflective of the times we live in.

CNN: http://www.cnn.com/
Yahoo : http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070417/ap_on_re_us/virginia_tech_shooting
Identity of the Killer: http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/04/17/vtech.shooting/index.html
List of victims: http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/04/17/vtech.shooting.victims/index.html

Vigil: http://news.yahoo.com/photos/ss/events/us/041807vtechvigils


I know that the spades are the swords of a soldier,
I know that the clubs are weapons of war...
(Thank you for the lyrics, Mafaz)

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Overcoat of memories

“We all came out of Gogol’s ‘Overcoat’”.

Cryptic words and one that burdens an immigrant’s son for most of his adolescent life, as Ashoke Ganguli leaves his son, Nikhil ‘Gogol’ Ganguli a book from Nikolai Gogol as a graduation present. That it took four months to locate and purchase is lost on Gogol, but the book holds more value that he acknowledges first up.

Mira Nair’s adaptation of Jhumpa Lahiri’s novel ‘The Namesake’ is an art film with a difference: it caught my fancy, and very few of them do. It traces the lives of two Bengali (a husband and wife) immigrants, who married as strangers and moved to New York, and their first generation Americanized children. That Ashoke and Ashima’s first born was named Gogol is mildly humorous, the reasons for doing so are more emphatic. It highlights the difference between West and East, and the perceived lack of understanding of each other’s cultures. And so this divide continues to exist in the lives of the Gangulis, as they move up in life, both professionally and personally. Ashoke and Ashima grow to love each other, respect each other, and ultimately value each other in their lives. Theirs is a story of the perfect arranged marriage, highlighting the virtues of the traditional Indian matrimonial system. That it doesn’t work now is not the point: this was 1977, not 2007.

I will not bore you with details, nor spoil it for those who haven’t had the opportunity to either read the book or watch the movie. It is tastefully done, with soft colors, mild environments and an amazingly soothing musical score from Nitin Sawhney. While the growing pains of Gogol could’ve been more dramatized, the generational gap conflict was handled in good taste. There was no storming out of rooms, loud yelling of parents/children, nor rebellious to the point of sadistic behavior from either side. It appealed to the logic, not the heart, and thereby offered more connection with practicality. Interspersed with light humor, and witty dialogues, the movie was one in which you didn’t sit and wish the hour hands to speed up to the end.

Perhaps two scenes stick out from the movie, and I’ve dwelled on them since I’ve seen it. Both occur towards the end, and both are reminiscent of the times that we live in today. As two of the protagonists (keeping in line with the non-spoiling idea) walk to the banks of the Ganges to sprinkle the ashes on the holy water, a group of kids are busy somersaulting in the background, and doing general tricks in the water like it was a normal day. A poignant scene, it gave you a life-goes-on feeling, and one that is typical of India. Despite the tragedy that goes on everyday, people rarely stop to look and help you. The other is Ashima’s farewell speech, one which moves the heart to realize just how far we travel in life, and when we finally come to a rest in the place where we started from, we miss the little things that make life worthwhile. In her case, it was the life she shared with her husband and children in New York, one that she’ll remember as she fulfills her lifelong wish of going back home to India. And what of Gogol? Will he ever find his home?

Gogol’s journey of self discovery continues, even today, in us. Being born outside our home country, it is easy for us to understand his pains and his sufferings in dealing with his parents. He reproaches the ‘traditional’ approach, claiming it to be decadent in the society he lives in, and advocates for the ‘modernist’ way of life that Americans lead. Sounds familiar, doesn’t it? The traditions of our ancestors seem cumbersome today, a burden that we have to carry purely because we’re descendants. But if we stop to look, and look deep inside, we realize that the tradition is our identity.


Much has been made of India’s progress over the last 5 years, and as we stand on the cusp of superpower status, we tend to forget the virtues that led us there. Hard work, dedication, and moral responsibility are all hallmarks of the Indian workforce. Today, we wish to pride ourselves in our innovativeness, our ruthlessness and our cunning. It’s like a business and its core competency. When we change the latter, the former automatically changes. The Americans realized that, and they stuck to what they do best: innovate. They’re not pretentious enough to think that they can slog their way to the top… they just slug it out when they reach there on the back of another’s effort. We should realize what ours is and stick to it. There’s no point in changing for the sake of change: just ask the Indian cricket team. We prove that our way is best, not someone else’s.

Gogol Ganguli has his own demons to conquer, his own memories to make peace with. And speaking of memories...






Appreciation from Grade 9: Had an appendectomy… was quite painful… the scar’s still there as well






Lower Sixth: A birthday card… for me…

Thank you to Patrick (yes, I still remember who made the card) and Karan (well, that one was easy… your name was plastered all over it!)… Thanks to those who were in school with me, I don’t fight with many memories. To you all, I owe a deep debt of gratitude. School was always the best for me

And I sign off with the single most important thing I’ve taken from The Namesake:

It was on a train that Ashoke met a stranger, who gave him the advice that would change his life: ''Do yourself a favor,'' the man said. ''Before it's too late, without thinking too much about it first, pack a pillow and a blanket and see as much of the world as you can. You will not regret it. One day it will be too late.''

All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go,
I’m standing here outside your door,
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

Monday, March 26, 2007

FAQs

Always attached with program setups, enquiry fill-up forms, websites, tutorials... you name it the FAQ section is never too far away. So is the case in life as well... we always search for answers to questions that seem to never tire out. Life after death? Does God really exist? Is there life on Mars? Is George Bush really THAT stupid? Questions that always leave one scratching their head for answers (believe me... I've seen several people really wonder at the miracle that is the American President, not in terms of a boon, but endless wonderment at the prolonged longevity).

And then there are the other types of questions: the questions that you ask but don't receive an answer. You would like one, but the answer is just not forthcoming. Maybe they don't have an answer. Maybe the choose not to give you one. Maybe it doesn't warrant an answer. Maybe it's rhetoric. And maybe it's plain cop out... fear of sounding weak, stupid, or silly. Maybe they're afraid of the answer, and don't see it as a question. Whatever be the case, you get a lot of these in life. And you don't know what to do when you're the one asking those questions. Hell, you never know what to do when you're the one it is asked to. All you know is that, in either case, you'd rather be somewhere else, doing something else that is more "worthwhile". And the silence festers doubt... you doubt the veracity of enquiry... doubt the workings of your mind. And you blame yourself for the question: It was too harsh a question to ask. Maybe there is no answer to the question. Maybe it's not a question.

Cop outs are nothing new in life. Just ask Stephen King regarding his Dark Tower series (man, was that an abominable waste of time...), or the Board of Control for Cricket in India (BCCI). These luminaries have done it several times, and in the case of the latter, made a profession out of doing it with alarming regularity. Taking the easy way out has been man's (and woman, child, animal... plant, maybe? I don't know... they don't move much... it's hard to say) greatest ally in times of distress. Forget the samurai/ninja/ancient warfare teachings of a quick mind and sharp reflex being your greatest weapon in times of distress. They're now replaced with an easy escape route, the backdoor out, the trapdoor beneath your feet.

Taking the easy way out, paradoxically, is never easy. The guilt associated with it lives with you, and unless you develop shallowness, will stay with you for some time. And whether you can live with that guilt determines whether you're the person to run and hide or stand and fight (well, if that sounds dramatic, it's because I saw 300 yesterday... the rhino was a complete waste if you ask me... no carnage whatsoever). And if you're the one asking it.. don't doubt the veracity of your question, or the harshness of it. If it was a query, and a genuine one, then you did the right thing by voicing it. Be at peace with that knowledge. "The art of letting go was learnt easily, and quickly. Not by will, but not exactly by force." Letting go is never easy, nor is learning it. It's one way of dealing with things, but not the correct or only way. Some day, you'll realize that, and also realize....

... there was truth in what you said, reason in what you voiced, and a right to know in what you ask.


"Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime,
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine,
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day.
And you're losin all your highs and lows,
Ain't it funny how the feelin' goes away?"
P.S. God bless Wikipedia... You have made my life amazingly easy. Now if only George Bush knew how to access it...

Saturday, March 24, 2007

New Beginnings

It is often said that the worst piece ever written by any author can be seen in a blank page. The key to good writing is writing first, and then writing well. Turn over a fresh page and chatter on a keyboard, scribble with a nib, or scratch away with a pencil. There should be nothing blank, nothing white, and nothing to suggest that words don’t belong there.

This sheet was blank, until what is above was written. Too often I’ve been confronted with the pristine whiteness, and each time I’ve turned away, unable to scratch out the cleanliness that was in front of me. A blank mind? It could be that. I’d like to think that it was the repetitive staleness that I kept harking back to. And often it ended with apologies about not blogging… in the end, there was no point to it.

Every once in a while, a fresh start is good, however. For every writer, there comes a point in time when the burdens of the previous page need not enforce itself on the next page. A clean break is good and a new perspective even better. Writing should not be a burden, least of all to those who don’t make a living out of it. And for certain, I will not make a living out of it. It may sound trite, but I never was a good writer. I had way too many thoughts and too many expletives to go with those thoughts. For those who know me, the two are never far apart when it comes to expression of opinion.

Who knows, maybe this is the blank page I needed. Time will tell, and I’ll let that be the judge of things.

“What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for what I give to you”